It took next to nothing for my bashful heart to lock on to you.
The idea of you and its perfection had me running even before everything began.
There was just you and your qurikiness then, I had yet to know everything there was about you. But as cliches go, the more I did the deeper I fell.
It took all of my being to realize that I had to be more than passionate, at first. There was more to loving than fire and fireworks. I learned to be calm, be patient and completely and unconditionally understanding. I directed my energy towards fulfilling one small simple goal, that seemed to mean everything
: that I wanted to make you happy.
It didn’t matter how big or small the gesture. I was addicted to the idea of seeing you smile because of me. Seeing you soar and reach new heights. To see you win was so satisfying.
All the while, I wanted my love to reach you.
I wonder now, after everything (and this time it isn’t just an expression) has been said and done, I wonder if it reached you.
I wonder now, a year in.. does it still reach you?
Have I managed to make it so that even as you grow old, i’d be an anecdote or a flittering memory that still grips your heart with glee or longing?
Or has it faded as a distant memory, replaced by new ones as easily as you forget a dream.
I know now that in my best and my worst, I never stood a chance.
But would you take it against me if I said I still love you the way I did since the beginning? I still want to see you soar, to win and succeed. I still want to see your smile and for you to be truly happy.
Even if I know that it won’t be you and me anymore.
I guess this is my way of saying I love you as more than a friend but never anything more.
I love you with a love that does not long for you, but cares completely. I do not miss your presence, but I long for your company. I want to see you happy, even if it isn’t exactly part of my job anymore.
As I once said that I love you with a love that moves the earth and calms the seas, now I love you like the earth loves the sky and the sun loves the moon. That even though we may never meet that way again, I know that you’ll live in my heart forever.